All I can do is pray: pushing through number two

So,
the stomach healed up. Lost a couple of days.
Got back into the swing of things. Kept swinging.
A couple of days ago my eye starts weeping. Rinsed it, left it, slept on it, worked a day.
Still weeping at 9pm. Hmm. Back to hospital. 6hr wait in emergency. Looks like another corneal infection, maybe an ulcer. Up to the specialist in the morning. Hourly drugs and daily visits for the next few days.
Get a call from a retired pastor who is worried about my health.
"Oh yeah" he says. "I get eye problems like that."
"Though not so much now that I have retired and am not under so much stress"
"You wouldn't be under any stress though would you... hahaha".

Another week of Scripture lost. Feeling really useless. Can't read, not meant to mix socially (could be contagious). All I can do is pray

On 'pushing through'

It has been a big couple of weeks.
A lot on at work. A big fundraising push. 'Interesting' pastoral issues. Diocesan training. Lots of meetings with big, controversial, difficult decisions to be made. As well as the usual week to week stuff. Friday night we had a '24hrs of prayer' at church that had me filling a gap at 2am.
The temptation has been to push on through this tough time.

Yesterday I got a massive headache. In bed all morning. Then in the afternoon I started vomitting blood. Not just vomit with tinged with blood. Rich red mouthfuls of blood.
Freaked out, called the ambulance. Off to hospital. Blood tests. CT scan. Morphine, mmmmm, morphine.
8 hours later I was released.
The most likely scenario is that the overtiredness gave me a migraine. The migraine gave me nausea, and the force of the vomitting, as it pushed through, tore the lining of my stomach. I'll have to go and get a camera down there to check.

Which makes me question the idea of 'pushing through'. When you 'push through', things get torn.